lit exam wrote till my hand damm pain..

chemistry..hahas...can jus go & die..

rushed to the hospital at 8plus last nite..

mum was having some acute pain at her stomach..
yea...so we went to KK hospital..
gawdd....we waited like the time has stopped..
wait for 4hrs jus to see the doc...
reached home at 1plus..
slept at like abt 2plus..
but kept waking up..sighss...
woke up at like 6am..
i do think alot...and it was this time when i told myself..
you* will be out of my heart ASAP..

msg-ed him..finally i am like getting a reply..
hais..toked..cried outside alone..
it hurts...really..imagine urself in my shoes..
you cry, and there is no one there to comfort u..to hug you..
but i told myself..its over...

maybe right from the start he has nv love me..
to him, i m nothing but a replacement for her..

afterall my thinking was still rite..right??
it is eunice tt he wanted...i know it..
but i still took e risk to be with him on 270506
jus hopping that he would be happy..tats enough..
but those 26days..i was really happy..
maybe afterall we werent meant to be..
maybe we remain as frens were better..
and i m not goanna cry over you agn..
i promise..since e dae u were with her,
i was pulled like a rubber band tat stretches
to its very own limit.. as far as possible..
and todae..i m tt rubber band tt snapped..
i cannot take it anymore..i m tired..
come to think of it..it is almost a yr it has been like tt..
if u didnt realise...hahs..but its okie...

you will still be my contract partner..rmb??

better rmb arr..

if not you will die beautifully..[sounds familiar?]

hahas..always will be.. =)

thou i tend to hate you at times when i dunno why..

but..i will get over it larr...

not the first time anyway..except this time more special..

hahas...yarr..time is wad i need..tats all..
i promise frens around me & myself..
ITS THE LAST TIME..IT WILL BE THE FULLSTOP to it..
i promise...

jus read your blog & oso her blog...
looking at wad she typed abt ur conversations
make me think abt those times wad u said to me..
they were like so different and irrelevant..
hahs..but suddenly i m jus wondering wad ure thinking..
at times, its just so contradicting..
but to me, it doesnt matter anymore..
i am numbed by everything already..
but the posts was just so sweet lar...
like so drama like tt..haha..
but really it's SWEET...[i meant her blog not yours]
know somehow she will drop by here..read it yea..(u noe how)
to her: for once the words are hidden for you & not him..
thou i dun really like you..(sorry for being so str8 forward)
hahas..but yarrhh...just wan tell u, treasure him kaes..
its quite seldom to see someone who loves u so much..
a guy who cries for you..
one who goes crazy like nobody's business cos of YOU..
next time teach me how you do tt ar..hahas..
you two love each other so much..i v pei fu your..
and of cos envy larr..but maybe he is jus not mine..
wads meant to be mine..will be mine..
wads meant not to be..will not be mine..
yupp..tats it...i wish you two the best happiness of all..
its true..from the bottom of my heart.. =D

*kai xin guo: thanks for being there for me

during this whole period of struggle..hahas...

you're certainly my kai xin guo..rmb our rules ar..

and oh yeshh..gawddd.....

i m falling in love with ur little cute sister.. =)

*baobeii: thanks for ur advices n tkx for being there too..

we shall meet up real soon again okies???

*ahh gongg: you too..tkx for ur big lollipoppy..

ahhas..haven eat yet..soon ba...

i am goanna smile all dae...even if i have to force it..i will..
takecare peeps..wad a longggg postt..hahas...
SMILES... =))

LOVEE YOU GUYS!! -HUGGS-