got back my english results today. i got 60/100 in total. which is a B4.
yays!! i improve by 2 grades can. was really suprised w myself.
met nigel & hc for lunch at pizza hut. hc eats so much cheese lar. gawd.
den went for maths tuition. was really tired. after that went home.

den ytd stayed back to check my FNN results.
i got 60/100 too. so dots lorr.. same as english, B4 too.
but is like for once i pass my theory paper. which is a good thing.
mmms..after that went home w/o eating lunch.
went out at abt 5.30pm..
met sis at ps. den baobeii at somerset.
walked down to cuppage. supposed to meet nicklaus they all.
they haven reached. so we play pool first.
soon after they came. sighs.
upon see-ing me, you immediately left. like wth?
felt so disappointed. almost cried but controlled.
hais. if you dun wan to see me, jus tell me.
all i wanna do is to pass you tt letter & give you a hug.
thats all. that simple. is it too much??
so you went missing for awhile.
they ask me to stay while they find. so i stayed.
soon, i cant take it any longer.
they cant find you. so i decided to go & find you.
high & low, outside & inside. finding you like mad.
but i just dun see you. felt so useless. cant even find a damm you.
den pearlyn came looking for me. helped me in finding you.
just when i am abt to give up, just when i am at the escalator,
i stretched out my long neck again. *the whole main purpose.
stretched up high. i saw you. your shadow. the blur view of you.
hiding behind that pillar at the 6th level.
i got so excited. felt so happy lar. den faster tell pearlyn.
faster took the lift up. but you're gone. so fast.
went round the whole level twice.
even to the extent of going in those deserted staircase,
those remote & quiet corners gave me the fears.
made me felt so afraid & insecure but i still looked.
i still chose to take the risk. looked. searched.
but i just dont see a you.
walked up & down. the whole cuppage building.
heard your voice & pearlyn's.
but i just cant seem to see you at all.
for a moment i tot i was blind.
den decided to go back to pool area.
controlled my tears but a few drops still came out.
what is this?? so you think its so cool to play hide-and-seek game with me lar.
let me tell you, its torturous playing with you this game.
knowing that your hand is hurt. i faster ask pearlyn go buy plaster for you.
wanted to leave le. but i was held back.
waited & waited. thought i could see you. even if its a minute or two.
but in the end, i still didnt. only one or two glimpse.
i told them, if you dun wan see me. its okay.
no use forcing someone. so left after awhile.

went to meet kazaf..walked to heeren.
shopped with baobeii for her clothes.
so she bought a ripcurl wallet which i encourage her to spend on. hahs.
i saw a gown lar that i really love it alot. its so sweet can.
but baobeii told me that shop is really expensive. sad.
den we took neoprint! didnt really turn out nice.
she almost want to zham me for some reasons lar.
den cabbed down to PS. walked round agn.
spoted a green flesh imp top for her. the back is really nice.
jus right for clubbing. its revealing. yupps.
den went rocky to eat. shared w her. *mushroom spag*
so i sort of half eat dinner. yarr.
no mood eat anyway thou i was hungry.

counting down the days as each day pass.
getting nearer to the day i will be see-ing you.
yet, you didnt even give me the chance to see you. nor hug you.
not even a chance to tell you to takecare. you noe it hurts??
how much disappointment i felt. how much it affects me?
but its okay. as long as you're fine. just take good care of yourself k?
whatever it is, i respect whatever decision you make.
all i want & wish for is you to be happy.
i'm sorry for making you so disappointed in me.
definately not what i wanted it to happen.
i just cant change my background. you noe its impossible.
maybe time will change it. i really dunnoe.
but all i just wanted is things to be fine. no hatred between us.
.op hlleaJ ! .noh ss!w !' uems

to all, (baobei, cyn, nick, orange socks, mich)
thank you for everything.
being there for me & stuffs.
you guys are great.
*loves (:

ohh myy..i took about an hour to type this post. gawdd.

I AM TIRED.

therfore, i shall end here. goodbye.