alrights..wanted to blog last night..but was kinda lazy..
anyway, went to tp to study ytd afternoon..
yea..and guess wad?? i cook my own dinner!!
the auntie practically dared me to go into e stall to cook..
so i went in..dots...yea...it was hilarious..& super paiseh..
hehs..but it was fun lar..tt auntie is damm funny..
she rocks sia..hahas..hearing her talk just make me laugh.
anyway, i am going to throw darts at nicklaus photo ler.
hahas..idert lor..dun let her bro give me the photo..
den she go give my sis their photo..wth..hrmphs..
passed pearlyn her orange socks..like finally?? hahs..

anyway, sighs...mmmm...i feel so helpless..
okay..nt tt i dun trust you..i do..but i'm still alittle uncertain..
after that long talk & msgs on saturday, i chose to believe agn..
things have been happening way too much..
yea..u once loved her deeply..soon after came another one..
and because of the most recent one, it creates my uncertainty for you.
i'm sorry.. i m jus too afraid to take another step.
after all the past experiences, i am starting to learn from my mistakes..
fish once tell me the reasons why my past experiences will turn out tt way..
it was all becos of my weakness..she said, "thou i may be attractive,
but my weakness is not attractive." (smth like tt) mmm...
i noe you are really trying v hard to give me tt assurance..
but i really do not have the courage to step in deeper..i really want to.
i'm already trying v hard to have tt trust for you once agn..
time is what we all need yea?? thru time, we will see everything.
to me, i am just afraid tat you'll leave any moment agn..sighs..
and i will eventually slip off agn..i dun wan anymore of these.
things are getting fine now. and i'm quite satisfied with it..
but exactly how long will this thing last until?? i hope its eternity.

okiee..some dumb ass hasnt call me..mmm..
wonder if she is still keeping to wad she has said..
i'm waitinggg.....wait until i wan sleep le ar..